I
My Soul. I summon to the
winding ancient stair;
Set all your mind upon the steep ascent,
Upon the broken, crumbling battlement,
Upon the breathless starlit air,
Upon the star that marks the hidden pole;
Fix every wandering thought upon
That quarter where all thought is done:
Who can distinguish darkness from the soul?
My Self. The consecrated
blade upon my knees
Is Sato's ancient blade, still as it was,
Still razor-keen, still like a looking-glass
Unspotted by the centuries;
That flowering, silken, old embroidery, torn
From some court-lady's dress and round
The wooden scabbard bound and wound,
Can, tattered, still protect, faded adorn.
My Soul. Why should the
imagination of a man
Long past his prime remember things that are
Emblematical of love and war?
Think of ancestral night that can,
If but imagination scorn the earth
And intellect its wandering
To this and that and t'other thing,
Deliver from the crime of death and birth.
My Self. Montashigi, third
of his family, fashioned it
Five hundred years ago, about it lie
Flowers from I know not what embroidery—
Heart's purple—and all these I set
For emblems of the day against the tower
Emblematical of the night,
And claim as by a soldier's right
A charter to commit the crime once more.
My Soul. Such fullness in
that quarter overflows
And falls into the basin of the mind
That man is stricken deaf and dumb and blind,
For intellect no longer knows
Is from the Ought, or Knower from the Known—
That is to say, ascends to Heaven;
Only the dead can be forgiven;
But when I think of that my tongue's a
stone.
II
My Self. A living man is
blind and drinks his drop.
What matter if the ditches
are impure?
What matter if I live it
all once more?
Endure that toil of
growing up;
The ignominy of boyhood;
the distress
Of boyhood changing into
man;
The unfinished man and his
pain
Brought face to face with
his own clumsiness;
The finished man among his
enemies?—
How in the name of Heaven
can he escape
That defiling and
disfigured shape
The mirror of malicious
eyes
Casts upon his eyes until
at last
He thinks that shape must
be his shape?
And what's the good of an
escape
If honour find him in the
wintry blast?
I am content to live it
all again
And yet again, if it be
life to pitch
Into the frog-spawn of a
blind man's ditch,
A blind man battering
blind men;
Or into that most fecund
ditch of all,
The folly that man does
Or must suffer, if he woos
A proud woman not kindred
of his soul.
I am content to follow to
its source
Every event in action or
in thought;
Measure the lot; forgive
myself the lot!
When such as I cast out
remorse
So great a sweetness flows
into the breast
We must laugh and we must
sing,
We are blest by
everything,
Everything we look upon is
blest.